Sir held me this morning after the alarm went off. It is always nice to wake up with his arms around me. But his hands...his wonderful hands...when he caresses me it takes up my skin. This morning my skin wanted more. I was able to coax him into touching my hot spots, which he liked, because I found him hard, and I touched him back. He made love to me for a little bit, and then told me to get ready for work.
I am very much enjoying this new "freedom" to express my simpler needs, wants, and desires. For some reason, me always being in control means I do not feel free to beg for that touch. I crave his attention, and I am really liking getting it.
I want to learn more about being a sub. I am really looking forward to learning what he wants from me. I like the idea of him just grabbing me whener he wants and fingering me, or telling me to suck his dick, or even non sexual things like when I should cook dinner, or take vacation, or what events he expects me to attend with him.
Being instructed on how to behave, and how to please is exciting for me. I am sure that in some cases I won't want that, but for now, I actually find myself wanting more of it.
I was reading about Dom/sub concepts last night, and find myself getting quite excited over the prospect of being more of a sub. For the first timem especially after that first session, I am beginning to understand the concept of "sub space" and already I want more. I can see myself becoming almost "addicted" to that feeling...I am craving it evennow.
I want to go to the Sanctuary and learn more. I wish to be restrained, blindfolded, put on display. I know that now is not the time, that is something that we may or may not build up to...but right now, this moment...that is my fantasy!
Until later....
me
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