Nice Day

Dear Diary,

It's a nice day out today. Sir did yard work this morning, cutting the grass, trimming the weeds, etc., and I did my homework for school, and then dyed my hair to Sir's liking (I hope). Right now I am letting the conditioner set, while I play Farkle. Then, we will go grocery shopping and hopefully have some time to take a walk and do some geocaching before Sir has to take His son home for the weekend, and we have my son and his father over for dinner.

Today Sir asked me if I am still okay with the D/s roles. I like that he checks in with me and tries to make sure I am comfortable in this lifestyle that we are trying out. So far I am. I have a couple moments of resentment here and there, which I read is quite normal for a beginner, as well as a more experienced sub. Also, I am very used to being the one in control, so it's a bit of an adjustment for me, but I think I'm getting it down.

I am looking forward to my next session with Sir. I do want to learn more about what He wants from me, and how I can be a better sub for Him. I also am craving his touch, and hope that it won't be long before I am rewarded.

I believe that I have earned some discipline from Sir as well, and I'm a little nervous about that. Yesterday I was a bit bossy, and I didn't do everything that I said I would do this weekend, so I am sure that consequences are coming. I think I have a tendancy to take advantage of the times when Sir cannot discipline me, like when he has his son visiting or when we have my kids around, or plans for other things. I read recently that subs tend to push the limits to see what they can get away with, and I've noticed myself doing that lately, just to see if He actually WILL discipline me like He says he will. He hasn't yet, and honestly I'm not sure if He will. But time will tell, I suppose.

I better get in the shower so we can get our errands done today.

Loving my new role,

me